妮妮魚

        昨天  在我奶奶的告別式上
                                                                               
        我一值不斷的回想到我爸那時候的情形
                                                                               
        (匠子好像有點對不起我奶奶厚 ^^")
                                                                               
        anyway
                                                                               
        總之覺得有點怨天尤人吧..
                                                                               
        為什麼會是我身邊的人呢??
                                                                               
        今天陪我姑媽去做禮拜
                                                                               
        我本身不是基督徒
                                                                               
        但是今天聽到牧師在台上講道的時候
                                                                               
        有提到
                                                                               
        其實這也是上帝給我們的功課吧
                                                                               
        給過世的人放下他在世間的勞苦重擔

        給還在世的人...心智的磨練
                                                                               
                                                                               
        "凡是受勞苦重擔的人
                                                                               
         到我這裡來
                                                                               
         我將是你們安息!"
                                                                               
        這是我今天聽到的一句(不要問我出自哪一章哪一節  我記不得 ＞﹏＜)
                                                                               
        嗯..印象很深..
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
        本來以為
                                                                               
        對於我爸的過世..我已經可以很平靜的
                                                                               
        敘述  面對  回想
                                                                               
        但現在才發現

        其實我只是  躲著不去想而已
                                                                               
        還以為匠子就可以快樂
                                                                               
        但實際上講到  我偷偷回想的時候
                                                                               
        眼淚  還是忍不住的一值掉下來
                                                                               
        在聽牧師講道的時候..
                                                                               
        好幾次  都偷偷紅了眼眶...
                                                                               
                                                                               
        呼~~呼~~
                                                                               
        總是會慢慢的過去的...
                                                                               
        只有心版上思念所刻劃的痕跡會留下